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questioning my independence

What does it really mean to be independent? For Emma Chamberlain, the answer isn’t as clear-cut as living alone or working solo—it’s tangled in habits, emotions, and the quiet moments when silence feels unbearable.
Emma reflects on her long-held belief in her independence, sparked by a road trip where she couldn’t tolerate silence and called her parents repeatedly. She unpacks how her reliance on distractions like YouTube and constant communication may mask an underlying discomfort with solitude. While she values autonomy and problem-solving alone, she recognizes an anxious attachment style beneath her self-reliant exterior. Her use of digital stimulation after work reveals not enjoyment but avoidance of inner emotional struggles. Through self-reflection and online quizzes, she questions whether true independence means being fulfilled both alone and in relationships. Ultimately, she concludes that independence isn’t defined by external markers or quiz results, but by an evolving, personal journey toward self-awareness and the courage to sit with discomfort without escaping into noise.
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I enjoy doing things alone because it's restful.
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I need reassurance and communication but not 24/7 contact.
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Only when over-consumption affects creativity does she stop seeking distractions
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True independence means being equally satisfied being single or in a relationship.